Finally.

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Everyone who knows me well, knows I am not patient. I really don't like waiting for stuff I want. But what I really hate more, is waiting for stuff I don't want. Like surgery. The dread, the anxiety and the mental games during the wait are sometimes worse than the thing itself.

So, I am frankly glad that today is here. Surgery day. Finally. And, I feel ready. I had a good meeting with Dr. K., I have done everything they asked, I've already been poked, prodded, stuck, charted and photographed. Let's just do this thing already.

I've bitched a lot along the way. It's a way to cope. But the biggest way that I have coped, has been through my wonderful friends. All of you who have listened to me whine, talked to me, prayed for me, for the laughs, the talks, all the moments that got me here feeling so loved, I am grateful.

Keep the prayers coming! Time to go!

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